It all started like a little joke and ended with my little bro’s head buried in a mountain of pillows and tears soaking the pillow sheets. DAmn, I’m evil. I said sorry OK!? I sat there waiting for him to stop crying K??! I hate it when I do that. I hate it even more when he acts as if it never happened. AAaaAAhh.. That unsettling feeling in ur stomach you get when you’ve swallowed a lousy mushed up mixture of juice and unknown liquids (like the one i get from the juicer on some mornings). The sudden plummet of spirits. This is guilt eh? But then again, he’ll "pay" it back with his annoyance I’m sure.
Again...
SORRY GARY!!!
Although,i love to bully him (**evil smile**)
BUT FOR SURE
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH
fat boy alert!!!!!
BEWARE,GORILLA ATTACKING!!!!!RUN.......
sleeping time...i know i am cute & handsome....
DUN ENVY OKAY!!!
i am a hardworking boy....
smart & pretty jie jie & fatty di di cam whoring
突然想用华文来写我的部落格。哈哈，第一次叻用华文写。有浏览我的部落格的朋友请见谅哦，很久没写华语了，有点烂咯我的华语。嘻嘻，毕竟已经有3年没写华文了咯。
多两天就大考咯。你们都以为我做足了准备功夫吧？若是，那你们就大错特错了。我啊可一点都还没开始呢？唉，惨啦。其实嘛，这次考试我已经及格了，只是若要拿A 就要加把劲咯。算啦,随天意吧！
刚才躺在床上又想起了之前与他的回忆。都已近快两年了，刘丽君啊为何你就是还放不下他呢？唉，时常对自己说，外面吖还是有很多的花和鱼等着我的，所以别这么执着以往的感情。已失去的感情又如何能挽留呢？可是啊，就不知为何还是会无时无刻的想起他，真悲啊，愚蠢的我！
除了他，令我心动过的人还有另一个的。可是啊，我就迟了行动咯，所以现在就吃白果啦，哈哈！真的有点后悔，可是又能做什么呢？人家现在都有女朋友了，算了吧，衷心祝福他幸福快乐，希望他真的找到他的幸福：）
好啦......已经发呆够了。就这样吧，考完试后才在发表我的言论咯。嘻嘻。
1. Andai kata cinta itu sebuah pengorbanan, mengapa pengorbanan itu bukan nokhtah sebuah cinta? Andai kata derita itu harga sebuah cinta, mengapa cinta itu semakin sukar dimiliki? Cinta seumpama kota kristal indah di penglihatan derita di perasaan.
2. Ada orang pada mulanya malu untuk jatuh cinta tapi bila perasaan menjadi rindu padanya, tiba-tiba perasaan malu itu menjadi hilang dengan sendirinya dan terpaksa menerima kenyataan yang sebenarnya bahawa anda telah jatuh cinta.
3. Gerak geri memberi pengertian kepada perasaan yang tidak terucap oleh kata-kata.
4. Cinta yang di semadikan tidak mungkin layu selagi adanya imbas kembali. Hati yang remuk kembali kukuh selagi ketenangan di kecapi. Jiwa yang pasrah bertukar haluan selagi esok masih ada. Parut yang lama pastikan sembuh selagi iman terselit di dada.
5. Cinta yang datang umpama pelangi ceria dengan 7 warna memukau saat bayu berlagu riang, tika itulah cintanya hadir. Apabila mata terlihat seseorg yang bakal mewarnai hidupnya.
6. Cinta bukan paksaan. Ia lahir dari dua perasaan, kehadirannya tidak diundang, perginya tiada yang merelakan kerana ia terlalu sukar untuk dimengertikan.
7. Persahabatan biasanya berakhir dengan percintaan tetapi percintaan tidak pernah berakhir dengan persahabatan.
8. Cinta bukan mengajar kita lemah tetapi membangkitkan kekuatan. Cinta bukan mengajar menghinakan diri tetapi menghembuskan kegagahan. Cintabukan melemahkan semangat tetapi membangkitkan semangat.
9. Apakah sebenarnya cinta itu? Cuba katakan. Tak lain tak bukan ialah dua jiwa dlm satu fikiran dan dua hati dlm satu debaran.
10. Cetusan cinta pertama merupakan suatu getaran yg sangat menggoncangkan jiwa.
11. Kadangkala kita menyedari betapa dalamnya kita menyintai seseorang, disaat kita sedang kehilangannya. Dan kadangkala kita juga menyedari betapa perlunya cinta seseorg terhadap kita, disaat kita amat memerlukannya.
12. Cinta yang lahir dari pandang pertama adalah cinta suci, manakala perasaan cinta yang lahir dr kemesraan persahabatan adalah cinta sejati. Namun sukar untuk membezakan yg mana lebih abadi, cinta suci atau cinta sejati.
PERCINTAAN bukan pasti berakhir dengan perkahwinan, malah ada pasangan yang bercinta bagai Laila dan Majnun tetapi akhirnya putus di pertengahan jalan.
Justeru, apabila mengingatkan kisah percintaan lama, pasti ramai di antara kita yang tersenyum sendiri. Bagi lelaki dan wanita, kita tentu mempunyai kisah percintaan sendiri yang kadangkala jika ditulis boleh dibuat novel.
Ada yang kecewa akibat bercinta mengambil keputusan terus membujang sehingga tua, seolah-olah cinta pertama itu terlalu agung dan tidak boleh diganti dengan percintaan lain.
Namun, bagi kebanyakan kita, jodoh pertemuan ketentuan Ilahi. Justeru, apabila gagal dalam percintaan pertama, kedua dan seterusnya, masih ada ruang untuk mengubat kedukaan itu.
Apabila menjadi suami isteri, kadangkala teringat juga kisah percintaan lama. Ada di antara kita yang berani untuk memberitahu pasangannya mengenai cerita cinta yang pernah ditempuhi dan bagi yang lain menyimpan dalam memori sendiri.
Setiap orang pasti memiliki kisah masa lalu, sama ada buruk atau indah. Timbul persoalan, adakah kisah masa lalu yang buruk itu perlu diceritakan kepada kekasih kita?
Adakah jika diceritakan akan membuktikan betapa dalamnya cinta anda dan pasangan? Atau adakah dengan membuka cerita cinta lama itu akan merosak dan memporak-porandakan hubungan anda?
Ada yang berkata, jika anda tidak menyampaikan kisah cinta masa lalu, maka anda akan menjadi seorang pembohong di hadapan orang yang anda cintai dan anda tidak mungkin dapat mencintainya sepenuh hati.
Ini berlaku terutama kepada pasangan yang berkomitmen untuk bersama-sama selamanya, justeru setiap orang berhak mengetahui kisah pasangan yang dicintainya itu.
Namun, sebelum anda ingin menceritakan kisah percintaan masa lalu, pastikan pasangan anda bersedia menerima segala masa lalu anda dan melupakannya!
Beberapa hal yang perlu diperhatikan untuk menyingkap masa lalu:
I got this phrase from my memory, not from some "famous quotes" engine or a newspaper article. The memory, in turn, was plucked from a discovery channel special about 2 years ago depicting the lives of patriotic army men who fought for their country during peak of World War 2.
It was a time where the once mighty powers of europe were in the Nazi’s hands and the only remaining hope rested on the shoulders of Great Britain. It was believed that the bloody battle which took place in the airspace of the island was the sort of battle that determined the final outcome of the war. It was crunch time for the RAF. But, as history spectacularly put it, Great Britain and the fight for free will prevailed. Then, sometime in 1942, he famously said: "This is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning".
Everything has its ending. But do we really know when the end would ultimately befall upon us? You have my assurance that I don’t. I used to think that if I tried my best to savour a wonderful moment, it would somehow be remembered by me for the rest of time. I was wrong. I found out that the more you try to make a moment "live forever", the faster it evaporates inside your head and floats out your ears. Instead, the little things you do tend to sneak its way into the permanent memory. For instance, even if I try to summon a particular memory from a trip i enjoyed, it was merely a vague, blurred-out snippet. Minor events such as getting stuck at a mickey shop’s stairway with my cousins during a big storm while waiting for my dad to rescue us, cycling through the busy roads with my cousins back in my dad’s hometown, etc… These are the ones that i can recall vividly. The time, the details, the people… all blended together and tucked into a corner inside my head. It’s weird, how these things happen. Yeah, that’s why truth is definitely weirder than fiction.
As much as I want to dwell on them, I have a present life to live. A life that would carve the way for my future life.
We must move on. That’s the way things work around here.
I have to say that blogging had its moments, but the time has come for me to look for greener pastures across the river to give me more leeway in some sense. Tones of assignments,presentations,final exam,role play are still pending.**my superhero please rescue me again**
Like I said, it is just the end of the beginning.
You know those days when you wake up in the morning after 8 hrs of sleep and feel extremely tired? Yeah …today is one of those days… I got up , went through the usual routine, woke up with a headache.. i wonder whats wrong with me. Could it be that i’m getting the jittery pre-performance feeling 24 hours before the actual thing?? or is it just a normal case of paranoia? don’t know, don’t care…
Despite sounding crappy and sombre in most of my posts, I hope you don’t get me wrong. I’m not the sad recluse who shuns every living person . Its just that I usually end up venting my anger on ppl, myself, on the whole society in some cases in blog posts.And it just so happens that I have a blog to dump those things. Honestly, I’m quite satisfied with what I have. Yes, I am. Did I mention quite ? silly me… mayb a little change here and there would be nice.. 
. Okok.. I better shut up.Have an enjoyable weekend ....and not to forget....
SELAMAT HARI RAYA ...MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN.
night....
Recently, i realised that when you grow older, and you understand the world more(or u think you do), time seem to pass faster. e.g. When you are in primary school, everything passes so darn slow and you are constantly looking forward to the end-o-the-year holidays.Then ,you enter secondary school…form 1 was a blast ! form 2 was even better >hope it lasted longer though…form 3 :what happened then ar? only clear memory is of the day i got my 1st hp and the PMR exam. Form 4 >just seems like yesterday that teachers are sorting us into our classes.. form 5 :whoa…hit the breaks! Time’s rolling by too fast! … got the picture?..and now we're all in uni/coll life....really fast..too fast...
So , life is all about catching up with that phenomenon we call "time". Is time actually a "thing" we can refer to as an object ? Or is it just a way of us keeping track of our lives. Imagine a world without "time" .Come to think of it , it seems highly impossible cus people’s sentence will hang halfway through..like: "hey dude!How was your party during er…. " . Everyone will be wondering how old they are.Lol.Well, its just a thought. It really doesn’t make sense though, cause people are bound to invent "time" …It just depends on what they name it. Maybe in another dimension, people call it " toim".Haha..
Finally my long awaited holidays has finally here.1 weeks of raya break means a lot to me.I am really tired of everything.I am exhausted totally.Never have a good sleep for few nights and i am not well at all.Weeks and weeks rushing for assignments and exam keep popping up and complaints after complaints in my class.**I hate u backstabbers!!Fuck off from my face,dun ever let me know who are you**...A million thanks to all my classmate that love me so much i really appreciate it. Mr Anand I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
Lets see what my plan for this 1 week breaks...
Day 1...sleep whole day,Tuition
Day 2...working in starbucks,continue work out at Fitness First
Day 3...Start doing PDP and Malaysian Studies Assignment
Day 4...Watching all my left out Hong Kong Drama,work out at FF
Day 5...Shopping Spree
Day 6...Clean my room,pack my stuff for Kelantan Trip
Day 7...Have a good chill with all my friends
That's what i plan for now...so let see how thing go...
At last 3 assignments done and submitted...the time rushing for all the assignments really like hell...learnt the lesson ,Never ever delay your work to last minute...SUFFER
German Oral test yesterday wasn't too bad but i am not happy about the marks i get.I only got 72 and i think i can get above 90 but thing just doesn't turn out perfectly.
FO midterm was so so la...lots of crap...confused on some stuff and hope i will get good marks for it.
Best awaiting stuff is the Kelantan trip but after all the happening in class,I am starting to worry about it and GOD please lets all the things go smoothly.AMEN
Sometimes, it seems more like a dream than a genuine fragment from my memory when I recall these mini adventures. The way they begin abruptly and stop similarly so does not help with my recollections either... but all’s well. I’m assured that they ARE true albeit only by faith and a subtle sense of guidance from my instinct.
But hey, some sacrifices in the form of comfort and familiarity have to be made in order to pursue your dream. A dream is not merely our mind’s wistful display of work, but the most powerful non-physical force one may ever possess (besides that telepathic superpower which has yet to be discovered of course :P).
Dreams are meant to be pursued, just as rules are meant to be broken. Likewise, clauses do apply for the former as it does for the latter. Come on, no one goes around breaking rules when it makes sense not to; similarly, a dream, it cannot be idiotic. (E.g. building a gamma ray gun to kill your neighbour’s dog for disturbing your beauty sleep). I mean, it can even be illogical, such as building a time machine.. or even constructing an alien tracking device. Fact is, there’s a very fine line between dreams and indulgences in daydreams ala fantasies.Berat bebanku
Meninggalkanmu
Separuh nafas jiwaku
Sirna...
Bukan salahmu
Apa dayaku
Mungkin benar cinta sejati
Tak berpihak
Pada kita
Reff:
Kasihku
Sampai disini kisah kita
Jangan tangisi keadaannya
Bukan karena kita berbeda
tZz,yan heng,me & karen Just a quick review on my valueble items that got snatched last Friday 08/08/08.
1.Identity Card
2.Driving Licence
3.Sony Ericsson K850i
4.Olympus Camera FE240
5.Transcend 2Gb MP3
6.Cash roughly RM250-300
7.2Gb & 4Gb Pendrive
Total Losts = RM2600++
I just got robbed infront of my house just now 3.45pm.When i reached my home and parked my car wanted to go in my house,come 2 bloody idiot bastard malay guys who their damn fucking parents don't educated them and let them ride their fucking motor and with their AXE go around and robbed peoples.All my important documents gone.My hp,camera,mp3,pendrive,wallet,IC,driving licence,and cash all gone.I am now equally a girl with no identity.
This is the second time i got robbed.Last year once on 4 april 2007 and this year 8 augt 2008.Both infront my house!!!!WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why am i so unlucky?Why am i so bad luck?What i do wrong?Why god want to treat me like this?Outside the worlds so many peoples who deserve to get punishment why they still can happily and live their own way?Why the police didnt even bother to take action while so many snatched cases reported?The police only know how to ask people to BELANJA them MINUM.What the hell is going on in this world?Where is the so call State Assemblyman when all this things happen?How sweet talking when they want us to choose them as the State Assemblyman but when things happen,where are they for us?SHAME ON YOU PAK LAH WHO DOESNT KNOW HOW TO KEEP YOUR OWN COUNTRY SAFE!!!!!!!!!
Knowing stress, the colour of the surrounding vibe should be grey and dotted with black fly-like buzzy living things.Moving away from my occasionally fragile physique.. Especially when I get an average of 4 hours of sleep per night for 7 days.AS I WAS TRYING TO SAY, Moving away from that,the tourism industry assignment due in 2 weeks.Project presentation is on 18 Augt.What's next,following with THIS Friday Tourism Geography assignment.God bless me.
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Last friday was Tony bday.After class we went to 1u for a small celebration for him.He treat 4 of us me,Clement,Wang Ge and Anand ate Bak Kut Teh at there.Here the picture.
Sorry for the late update.Again,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TONY.
Lets hope that this post works it way through the snail-paced dial-up connection that is currently forced upon me and this household.
First of, the excuses. Knowing that it wouldn't make much difference, are they still necessary? Why, YES! For reasons that even I fail to recognise, I feel obliged to at least give a few excuses to make amends for my disappearance from the bloggosphere last weeks. (Though I'm not quite sure to whom this should be directed to).
Cause of the lack of posts- excuses:
I'll just stop here. Any more and I'd probably get an award for my idiocy (not to mention cyberspace wasting)
Anyways, just for the sake of updating:
I went out to piramid yesterday with Alvis,Gladys and Kim.Basically we just wasted our precious 12 hours at there to hang around and walked around like nobody business.LOL.We catched up a midnight show--The Mummy and it wasnt that bad just that you know when the alarm in our brain start controlling us and i actually slept when the show start.But after all,i still manage to know the whole story laaa...I just slept for 30mins perhaps.Hehe.
PC FAIR last day.Going there now with Yee Soo to check out any cheap left out stuff for us.I wanting to get a speaker for my Ipod Classic 80gb and YS want get an antivirus and mouse for his laptop.Hopefully we are back with somethings.Till then ciao for now.
I just came back from clinic.Sorethroat since yesterday and now became flu then fever.Few red dots popping out on my hands.Doctor suspected that i infected by chickenpox.Ohhh nooo....I don't want get it!!!Anyhow,have to wait tomorrow see my body have any red dots symptom only can confirm am i infected by chickenpox.Lets pray hard for me it's just a normal sensitive symptom.
There's a place in the centre of this heart,
that yearns for a forlorn part,
in this world of tizzy plateaus,
of which has rendered me
powerless:
to stop its advancement
to prop myself aplomb
to make the worries fade away
when your heart beats
close to mine
There's a picture of my life
and there's yours
smacked in the middle,
encased by the invisible shell
that shields it from change
What happens
when the shell is removed
when all defenses are down?
the imperative that was
to chain down change
is unlocked and
rust eats into the metal frame
while colours fade away and
the paper that holds the memories itself crumbles
to ashes of the soon-to-be forgotten
as familiar faces turn into those of strangers
那一年默默无言
只能选择离开
无邪的笑容已经不再精彩
你害怕结局所以拼命伤害
说是我挡住你的美好未来
你坚决不希望我等待
我便默默的让你走开
如今你受了伤回来
叫我如何接受这安排
我难过的是放弃你放弃爱
放弃的梦被打碎忍住悲衮
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是忘了你忘了爱
尽全力忘记我们真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来
Then again, all that's hidden beneath the canopy might not be as complicated as it seems. There's no reason to blame society in general as you can only point the finger at yourself for being an idiot.
I need to jump off a cliff that has some extra safety cushion at the bottom so the people who jump wouldn't die. Better still, throw away the cliff and its fall-breaker. Despite the fact that the virtual-world setting practically defeats the purpose itself, someone should just invent a virtual cliff especially for temporary psychos like me to jump. (so that the normal part of us won't wake up to blame our psychotic alter-ego)
So while I'm jumping off edges into the bottomless abyss below (all virtual of course), I think it should be for the best that I master the technique of talking to oneself, eat take-outs 24/7 and bury myself in the avalanche of delusion.
I need divine intervention (or equivalent). Heck, I'd settle with an insy wincy epiphany.
Only problem's that epiphanies just don't jump out of thin air simply because you want them to. OHHH NO, you have to go through all that deliberation and even with that, you need a spark to get the train of thoughts rolling.
So what now?
I'll try to figure that out while I continue to swim aimlessly in this murky pool of shit.
Such a long time since my last update.What can i say more? 3 words.
No mood to blog today and it's just a mess today.Screwed up everything.F**k!!!!!Went class for just 1 hour and screwed up all things.I remember MR Nelson told us this story during orientation weeks."A SHIT STORY".Finally now i can used it here.SHIT.A piece of SHIT.All about SHIT.Out of all peoples there why ME?Am i the special want or the odd want?Don't ever expected me to know EVERYTHING although i learnt or done before these.Just treat me like a normal person PLEASE.
I HAVE A HARD FEELING ON THIS.
Those who know what happened today will understand why i so emo now.
Ever had that strange feeling when you're near a fan that is spinning ferociously just inches away from your face? The feeling that comes in tandem with the muffled voice in your head that shouts for you to exemplify stupidity *of the highest order* as Mr R would add. (It just fascinates me that he's so attached to that phrase. I guess every one of us have phrases that we (somtimes unknowingly) "adopt" as our own favourite tagline to brandish whenever an opportunity arises. I find that reasons ranging from "thinking that this would sound cool" to "I just like the sound of it" are usually behind all this tag-line business.)
Another situation that bugs me is that when you're up on a multistory building and there's this balcony at the end. You lean on the balcony and look down. You feel (at least just a bit) intimidated by the height if you lean too much right? Well, I tend to go the extra mile by thinking about the eventualities that would unfold if I just push myself over. Picture the frightening fall... and..
*steps back from the balcony*
Ok...that's enough for all the crap.Hell,tomorrow only 1 hour of class from 8am to 9am.I should be happy but yet it's just waste my petrol for going so far and attend 1 hour of class.Fine fine fine....I know i shouldn't complaint much.
I shall retired to my bed now.Night.
Success, for me, at this point in time, refers to the pride in knowing that we have chipped in positively as a contributor.... which also include one important life element on which I have so far remained silent- Family and friends. The simple mother, the breadwinner, the good friends who keep us company and love us for who we are. They shouldn't be left out of the equation.
On a separate note, even the smartest, most farsighted person on earth cannot see the full picture of his/her future. The one and only way to find out is for us to
continue trudging, skipping, ambling and running along that unpredictable, ever-altering path towards the future while upholding the set of individual principles that sets us apart from the world and determines who we are.
Just finished typing my class name list.Anyways,a brand new weeks has started and for me was quite a hectic and busy weeks ahead.Last friday night my home streamyx was down and thank god it back in service on monday.Got selected as class secretary for a number of 75 students in class.That's mean i have lots work to be done by now.My brother got chicken pox and what best is i havent got mine YET!!!! I must stay away from him few miles now.Gosh...I realy don't hope i will get infected.
Learnt German today and it was fun and easier compare than French.I already make up my choice.I choose German.
Guten Tag ,wie ist Ihr name?
Guten Tag,mein name ist Elaine.
wie geht es ihnen?
Gut/Super/Es geht
Auf wiedersehen.
Goodbye.
Stay tune.More to come.('';)
My streamyx at home was down.Grrrr....damn frustrated and results that i cant online since last friday night.I have called them and complaint about the problem and hopefully my line will be back by tonight when i get home.**praying hard** Blogging now at college library.Class at 9am.
Got to go now.Will update soon.
wif 2 Xiong Di frm China
me and Nelson
all of us at PICCSometimes I get so tired. So tired of pretending that change doesn't matter anymore. Why does it have to?! Every grown man or woman can handle it, why can't I?
When I peer into the window of an ex-classmate's life, I see unknown faces, I see those slots once represented by some of us- even me- replaced by a stranger. Then the wave of melancholy. I cannot be a part of everyone's life. Lamenting about the 'could-be's and 'if's can only pull me deeper into this pit.
So what if I suck at dealing with friends. I lose some, I gain some. Ultimately, I'd HAVE to choose, to prioritize.
Funny,
that the ten year old Elaine was better at handling her friends than the current one.
Just got my timetable and it's SUCK.Next weeks onwards everyday class start at 8am until 5pm DAILY.Well have to adapt to it slowly.Praying hard that i can get some of the subjects exempted.Tomorrow have role play and need to be in college by 8am to meet up my group for rehearsal.Gosh i don't know what going to be like since it's so last minute work.Anyway,time to sleep then.
sweet dream pals.
Dahulu kau mencintaiku
Dahulu kau menginginkanku
Meskipun tak pernah ada jawabku
Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku
Aku menyesal tlah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu
Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku
Aku menyesal tlah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu
Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku
I slept at 3am last night and woke up today with the moon still blazing through my window. Sensing something amiss, I reached over to my alarm clock and as I was trying to shake the sleep out of my head and make out the time (You know how your brain, when it comes to clocks - analogs- tend to take up a few seconds to register the time).
"SHOOT! fuckfuckfuckfuck.. It's 645am!" And i should ready to college and get out my house by 7am or the latest 7.30am to avoid the freaking long annoying traffic jam. Getting dressed and getting there would take another 1 hour. Ohhh DAMN >.< That's sure a hard time for me to get a "SAMAN-free parking" then.You know my college are such a "nice and big campus" and the parking lots inside the campus are very limited and we have to constanly spot any empty slot at the resident's area and just slot in whenever we can( you know WE Malaysian like to did that) and that the chance for the MPPJ to issue out their authority.
That's how my day started- A little sour, a little bitter plus a pinch guilt.
Anyhow, as I try to kickstart my day with tuna sandwich for breakfast at college food court, I realize that I should start getting some shuteye earlier rather than later. Sleeping at 3am, as is my wont nowadays; Being kicked out of dreamland by the my handphone's alarm, something I look forward to least everyday; "fishing" in class. All of em should STOP. And I know that I am the only one who holds the handbreaks to my own actions.Time to pull it.Seriously.
Today still was the orientation weeks and as usual listening to all the lecturer lecture and nagging us all the Do's and Dont's.Getting my student card done and i tell you the picture of mine taken its so ugly .I wonder how they actually can just snapped photo without adjusting the camera.(At least to the right angle please).Well,at least not mine only ugly as all my friends turn outs the same product and we're cursing the guy and woman who took the photo for us.(Please took out the camera manual and read it before taking any photo).grrrrr.....But we having a good time laughing at each other ID card.Haha...
The school had pick some seniors to bring us around the college for a tour in case we're "lost" in the college for this very first two weeks.Frankly speaking,the college wasn't THAT big until can get lost.But somehow we still need some time to adapt to the new environments.I believe as time goes on we were able to figure out each and every tiny thing in the college.Lets give myself a time period of 3 weeks.Yay...
My class were such a huge number of students.That's make me scared now.I duno the actual number of peoples but at least there were more than 60.Wow!!! I feel the pressure now.Phewww...
Hopefully tonight i can have a good sleep and looking forward to get my timetable tomorrow.
I don't get this thing called love.
I used to believe in it. Believe there is gonna be that feeling of care that would forever linger around you.
But....... movies and shows are confusing me.
How come they can deny love so easily? How come they can just put it off and just brush it off while continuing on with life as normal. I can't even sleep sometimes when I didn't tell my parents the truth~
So, maybe people are just always waiting for someone better to come along.
I just don't get it. How can you deny a feeling so strong?
Morning worlds.Yea,its Monday today and i know Monday blues.But we still got to continue our life right?So happy working and schooling guys and girls.
Going to class in a short while.
**grab car keys and wallet leave my room now.**
My way... Why is it so hard to do things my way? It should be easy. Easy as pie. It's the worlds simplest form of simplicity. Elementary and abecedarian-ism may need no more euphemism than what I've put forward to follow.Shutup and listen to your own mind before listening to others. Who's running this body anyways? Me or that persistent outsider other than myself.Books can be a nuisance too sometimes. The key is to take that particular type of books with a pinch of salt. You can't just change your view on something after just one book.My stand has to be stronger.
Anyways, I went out to Piramid yesterday with Pearly and Genevieve for lunch and sing-K at Redbox.We have our lunch at Dragon-I and its so freaking expensived and yet the food not realy nice compare to a normal coffee shop.They even charged a packet of wet tissue for RM1.What the hell.Well,nevermind that was my first time there.Nice experienced though.Well after a day at Piramid,i am officialy declared BROKE right now RM100 gone.**heartache**
Class start today i am so excited yet worry.Anyways,its late and have a nice week ahead.
**switch off light and crawling to my bed hugging my pillow**
Kenangan terindah
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang t'lah hilang
Darimu yang mampu menyanjungku
Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenangmu
Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati
Chorus :
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
Darimu kutemukan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati
Chorus:
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau
Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang t'lah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
YOU HAVE ONE LIFE.DO SOMETHING.
Come Walk In My Shoe
My life was traded by another
How I long to see my father and mother
Do you know what it's like to have your life sold?
Then contract HIV yet live on and be bold?
To hear my story means that you care
But to truly understand,you must walk with me there
Trade your life for mine,you have nothing to lose
Join the ONE LIFE REVOLUTION (OLR) come walk in my shoes
There are two stakeholders in this revolution
There is me : one life that needs resolution
And there is you : one life that can help mine
The revolution takes place when our plights combine
The OLR experience lets you truly see
What it's like to be trafficked and have HIV
I dare you to care,take my challenge if you choose
You will then understand as you'd have walked in my shoes
To tell ya the truth, I haven't been able to blog my heart out. The zealous, sentimental blogger has disappeared; and now in her place, a quotidian, almost robotic persona who posts just because she has to because she said that she would because she had nothing else to do because she is lazy. I'm not sure if it's even legal to use that many 'because'es in a sentence but If you are observant and just happen to be next to me right now, you can't miss the action in which I'm helplessly clutching at straws, trying to salvage as much of what I used to have. It just isn't right, feeling the knowledge gained and skills honed seep steadily out of my body.
A smart alec would probably say that I should be out there in the battlefield, putting right what I think is out of order instead of sulking and whining about how things are sliding down a spiral towards failure and self-destruction. She would also say that I'm wasting a precious friday night in front of the computer. Before you go on thinking along the same line as my imaginary smart alec- whom I suddenly have the urge to turn into a punching bag- I would like to, in the kindest fashion possible to mankind, halt you from doing so.
Why? Because I'm tired of being reminded that I'm an average in a society where average is almost as bad as below-average and only excellence is celebrated. Plus, there is also the fact that you can't be good at everything. You can love and be good at studies and sports at one point, but obviously, those two don't get along together in a career path prospective. That is why sometimes, it's fine to sit down, look at the bigger picture and whine about the wall of adversities you're facing while sulking at the open windows and doors you sacrificed for another opportunity.
I especially hate and detest that feeling of being left out of something you want to do, but having to give it up because there are options that outweigh it in terms of importance. And when I say "importance", it merely relates to "ensuring a brighter future" which also means "More MONEY". The same "important" tag that doesn't guarantee a happy lifetime ahead is sometimes overused, and thus, becomes the cause of many misjudgements. It is almost as if everything we do now is premised on financial stability and the conjecture that happiness is sure to come along with it. How many people out there can actually say with their heads held high that they chose what they truly love over what is "important"? How many can be good at all the things they love? I know I can't.
Hence, the sulking and whining.
Have a nice weekend, y'al!
Hey,
I'm Elaine and this would be my first post here on Elaine's Eternal Sunshine.
"what's with the name?", you may ask. If what you wanted to ask about was the blog's name, I gotta say that it wasn't planned as an "Operation Rescue the PM" might've been planned. It was kinda a spontaneous, first-name-that-pops-into-my-head thing.
As this is my first post here, you would think that it's in nature that I should start spilling everything about myself... Well, I'm gonna beg for your humble apologies here as I won't be doing that. What I'm going to do is: I will divulge the dull secrets of my life, background and history bit by bit through post like this one.
Posts would probably roll out on a weekly basis :P.. I can't spend my time blogging ALL the time, can I? (Just in case, that was a rhetorical question okaay -.-)
As for now, I'm glad I started this blog at long last. Lets get this blog rolling! Till then
*Yawwnn*
Nite world
